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So we are coming to the end of another year. What a year it’s been. So many highs and far too many lows. I’ve never experienced a year with so many changes. My life has completely been turned upside down, shook up until it’s dizzy and then kicked in the balls for good measure.
Life Changing News
We start in January, and I began the year with an easy one. I was given the news that I was HAVING A BABY!! Not so easy then. I completely bricked my pants and thought that I’d basically ruined my life. It wasn’t that bad thankfully. You can read the full story of how it went here. I’ve always wanted to be a Dad and start my own family. I just didn’t expect it to happen this soon! I didn’t have a permanent job, I was still living at home with my parents and I could only just manage to look after myself. My life was never going to be the same again. Fancy Amy getting herself pregnant. How very inconsiderate of her.
My New Life
March is the month that it all happened. I don’t know how I survived these couple of weeks with my sanity still intact. At the beginning of March we got the keys to our new home. That’s right everyone, I now live with a real life woman! I never thought that I would see the day. I do all sorts of adult things now like pay bills and change the bed sheets. Things that I’ve never done before in my life! Yeah that’s right my mum used to change my bed sheets, don’t judge me! This was a huge step for me, as I’m not really the easiest person to live with. I have a tendency to leave the toilet seat up, I make a mess in the kitchen when I’m cooking and I very rarely clean up after myself. I don’t think Amy really knew what she was taking on.
Another life changing moment in March was the start of a new career. I left my job as a Teaching Assistant trying to teach small children not to beat the shit out of each other to working in a nursery where I now teach children not to beat up their own shits. So basically it’s kind of the same. I now work with a full team of females all with anger and hormonal issues, their words not mine! You can find out about all the joys of working with females here. Although if as a female you are easily offended I wouldn’t bother.
April was the month that I officially started writing my blog. I haven’t exactly taken the internet by storm yet and there’s no Blogger of the Year awards on my wall (one can dream) but as a hobby I’ve enjoyed sharing my experiences with whoever has decided to tune in to my posts. The feedback from friends and family has been positive which makes it all worthwhile. If nothing else it will be an entertaining read for Austin when he’s older. Austin if you are reading this then you should know that I love you very much and all the terrible outfits you’ve seen in the pictures were all your mums ideas!
April was also the month that we found out the gender of our baby. We were ecstatic to find out that we were having a boy! Everyone always says that they don’t really mind what gender they have but secretly everyone has a preference that they’d rather have if they had to choose. A girl would have been great too but I can’t pretend that I wasn’t slightly relieved to not have to deal with dressing up in princess outfits and playing with barbies just yet.
The month of May this year was without doubt the worst month of my life. My Dad lost his battle with cancer on the 16th, which has left a huge hole in my life ever since. You can read my story here. It was hard knowing that my dad would never get to meet my son. He will be missing on my wedding day (whenever that may be) and he will not be there to witness all of Austin’s achievements in life. Still to this day the grieving process continues. It never really gets any easier, you just find a way to carry on. I know he’s keeping an eye on us all though. I’m not really a believer in the afterlife and the idea of ghosts but Austin does spend a lot of time staring into space so maybe my Dad’s around somewhere.
In July, I turned 25 years old! A quarter of a century. Mentally I still feel 10 years old but the physical effects of ageing are starting to creep up on me. The grey hairs are coming thick and fast these days and this was before my child was even born. I think that I have officially reached adulthood now as I spend every minute of every day tired. That’s all that being an adult is really, you just accept that you now live your life with permanent giant suitcase sized bags under your eyes.
If you are wondering where the ‘mentally disturbing’ part of the title comes into play, look no further than September. I saw things this month that would leave any normal person mentally scarred. I witnessed childbirth for the first time! My son Austin was born on the 19th September at 7:10pm weighing 7 lb 10. I’ll never forget this moment for the rest of my life. Watching the woman you love bring your child into the world was magical. That’s even after seeing waters explode all over the bed and watching Austin tear his mummy a new bumhole on the way out.
I’m still getting used to the idea that I’m now a father and have an actual real life baby that I’m now responsible for. I’ve had to do a lot of growing up very quickly. It doesn’t matter how prepared you think you are for parenthood, it’s a whole different ballgame when it actually happens. It’s a lot harder than I expected and you basically just have to learn on the job as you go along. It’s a huge change in lifestyle too, gone are the days when I could finish work and attach myself to the sofa and waste my time doing nothing. I now finish work and spend whatever time I have with my son.
In October, Amy and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary. We’d put up with each other for that long already! Or more she’d put up with me. I guess she’s not bad really. Amy has only spent 9 months carrying my child, finally delivered our child, found us a place to live, sorted most of our finances out, maintained our home and all whilst having to spend every day with me. She’s not done too bad really.
Christmas this year was a strange one. It was full of happy memories with it being Austin’s first Christmas, but it was also filled with sadness at it being the first one without my Dad. The sheer amount of presents that Austin received was astonishing. I’ve never seen so many battery operated toys in one place. I will be needing a lifetime supply of AAA batteries. All that I wanted for Austin however was for him to spend his first Christmas with his close family, enjoying himself and making some life lasting memories.
Rather than watching the same Christmas film for the thousandth time we decided that we would instead dig out the videos from some of our childhood holidays.There’s nothing like watching a younger version of yourself make an absolute tit of themselves. We were howling with laughter! Hearing my Dad’s voice again was VERY surreal but seeing the joy on his face on the videos just brought back so many fond memories. Couldn’t have thought of a better way to spend Christmas.
As you can tell, this year has been crazy! How I’ve managed to get through it without having a mental breakdown is the greatest ever mystery. I’ve experienced the best and worst moments in my life within the last 12 months and it’s completely changed everything. Lets see what 2018 brings and hopefully it can be filled more with happiness and joy.
My new years resolution for 2018… Enjoy every second that fatherhood has to offer, even the disgusting parts!
Happy New Year!